When i was a child , i thought all the potentials just owned by my sister. Since she was a child, she won a singing competition and drew really good painting. Plus, she is also pretty and open to all neighbor. I mean she would not cry even an outsider came and cuddle or gave her a hug. Me, grew up as a very sensitive girl. Dad said i do not a natural vibration voice like my sister. I remember that word until being a teenage. I was hurt , no actually later i found out, i was the one who hurt my self.
I let my self to underestimated my potential.
"All babies who born to the world have their own talents. No matter they were born with disabilities. The treatment from family and society shaped their mind and talents"
I thanked to my family who asked me if i wanted to transfer to Islamic school. Islamic school gave me a new concept of education. I did not have any classes on Saturday but extra curricular classes such as swimming, cooking, washing clothes and many interesting activities. Even i had to stay in school until 4 pm, but i enjoyed it. Some of the teachers were fresh graduates. In general school, usually teacher has a long experience for teaching a subject. I continued my high school in general education system and compared them, a fresh graduate teacher does not mean she/he does not enough ability. They have potentials! They just need to pass process to strengthen their potential.
In Korean, potential is 잠재력, which means something hidden inside. So i tried to find my potentials. I tried with music. I went to music school and took violin class. Believe or not i got my royal exam level 3 but i stopped after that. I got chance to play with many talented friends and musicians but i did not feel comfortable. I felt there was a problem with my learning process. Someday i will back and do it from basic. wait for me my violin!
Then, i admitted to UGM and studied Korean language. For me learning a new language does not feel burden cause i used to learn many languages but can not speak except for English. I do really regret now why i can not speak Arabic (during my study in islamic school i had arabic class for 9 years). Then Chinese and Japanese. Nowadays i am so into Turkish. But still can not communicate with my roommate in Turkish except greetings. I feel that i can learn it but i need an effort to make it comes true.
"Potential needs to be developed. You need to learn something and add to your potential. Some how to develop your potentials, you need to struggle many things. Hold on and keep pushing!"
After coming to Korea, i found many interesting facts that actually i could start in Indonesia. I did not believe before that i COULD loose my weight. Never! i was 63 kg when arrived to Korea. You can check to my entry blog post. But my friends showed me their spirit. A good friend can really upgrade your life. I lost almost 10kg in a year. Now, i believe that i still can build my body so i join my friend's aerobic class every week. The result will not be shown soon but i believe it is gonna keep me healthy.
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| when i was 63kg |
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| around 53-54kg |
Recently, i found my special talent. Another potential that i did not dig it up but i came to me in a moment. Back to last year, when my friend went back to America, right before it, i gave him my drawing. I did not stop that, i continued drawing till today. I do not say my drawing is good or awesome. But sure this one is something that i will not quit. After did sketches, i tried to paint with water color in drawing paper. The last project, i drew my ceramic teacher face on an eco bag.
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| my beloved friend, bere, |
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| drawing on an eco bag |
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| my lovely ceramic teacher |
So, for a conclusion, i suggest you to question again your potentials. It does not matter you are really good on it or just do it because you love it. I love to sing. But i do not care whether my voice is nice or not. You can check if too curious about
alfi's singing.
You do not need to be perfect or special. Just do your best and never give up. Never underestimate your self. Love yourself!The winner is not some one who is talented by nature but the one who is never quiitt!!
